ballistic

This weekend was an odd juxtaposition of emotions and situations. After our session last Thurs., actually DURING our session, Joe agreed to completely stop playing online pool, thus eliminating the urge to chat and God knows what else with all these other women. It's amazing how it has changed my view of our relationship. I actually have hope now. I actually feel like we may be able to make this work. And it's as if some huge dark, heavy weight has finally been lifted from my heart.

We were also having a good weekend with Kaylee, up until about 5:30 yesterday when she went fucking ballistic. Joe had hidden a completely indecent skirt she had worn the night before. We were all getting ready to take her and her best friend out for a nice dinner to celebrate her birthday when she discovered that the skirt was missing. Whoa, nelly. All hell broke loose. She started screaming and cussing at Joe, and threw her cell phone against the wall, before Joe tackled her and tried to hold her down until she calmed down. She scratched the hell out of his arm multiple times and continued screaming and crying, saying I hate you and You're not my fucking daddy--just every hurtful, hateful thing she could think of. Meanwhile, Hayden's crying and screaming for them to stop and locks himself in his room. Kaylee's friend, Sam, decides to get into the act and screams at Joe to stop hurting her then slams the door into the wall, knocking a hole in it. Finally Kelly arrives to "save the day" and the two delinquents are taken away in the escape Jetta.

The drama and melodrama in this family is so out of control at times. Ironically, Joe always remains calm--unreasonably calm in a way. The whole thing makes me feel so helpless--I don't know what my role should be, how to help. I see a family that needs help, and now that family is my family, but I'm still the outsider, still being told to stay out of it. So what do I do?