sunday

I've slacked off in the last couple of days. So here's the update. Joe's computer started freaking out yesterday and he's trying to run Norton Utilities on it, but it keeps giving him error messages. I'm freaking out because I'm thinking maybe it has something to do with the spyware software and that he'll discover it. So I keep working on it until I somehow finally get it fixed, after secretly turning off the spyware and hoping like hell it hadn't damaged anything. This morning I turned it back on--we'll see if I have need to worry, though I don't really think he'll do anything for another few weeks.

This morning I got a little pissed off --twice I made him hard, twice he did absolutely nothing to reciprocate. So finally I got up and came downstairs, made coffee, put away laundry and dishes, and got increasingly pissed. He came down and tried to make nice, saying he was just waking up slow, yada, yada. Why can't I just turn it off--stop wanting it? I just want so much for him to want me, for him to desire me the way I desire him for a change. And that's not something I can MAKE happen.

On another subject, I finally heard back from Barbara. And I'm relieved. She gave me a very useful, detailed critique of quite a short piece, so I'm pleased. I look forward to sharing with her because she may be the first person I've ever shared with who has talent in both areas--writing and critiquing. It's nice to have found that at last.